I want to change ! & I can do it :)

If I dare to dream & imagine of who I can be in the future , I need to start now.

I need to start not to care about what is my fears , but face what is infront of me. 

Hello readers ,
I didnt managed to post anything for my blog because I was tired & I reached home at around 11pm plus.
Church was fun , I love yesterday's service. It rox with Pastor .
We sing , sing & sing and including dance . I cried few times because of the touching moments and the touching songs that we sung together & I really feel the present of god upon us. :)

Choir was tough yesterday . Early in the morning , we have to stand & sing and sing and not much break was given to us . We kept singing and singing .
Wanted to have a break but Miss Chung came in and once she came in , we totally stand for few hours , 4 hours to be estimated.
But right after choir , went off immediately to went and search for Jamie , but I was soaked in the end . I love the feeling of the rain pouring on me but I feel so drenched and cold and after I ate my lunch at Mac , I went changing into the new attire, but not nice.

Was late to meet Preston yesterday .
He was fuming with flame . Scary D: , I dont like . I will not be late already . I promise.
SORRY PRESTON , I AM LATE ! , I promise I will not be late anymore . HAHAHAH

After a crazy chatting with JonJon HAHAHAH , which is Jonathan Ho . HAHHAH .
He treat me Texas Chicken when there is nothing to eat seriously , he really want me to eat , I gain a few pounds . HAAHHA
Crazy interaction with the others , I love the laughters .
I watch Final Fantasy movie and I kinda love the movie , I want to stalk them already HHAHAHAHA.

In the end , Preston send me to AMK but is in the same line . But I am thankful . I will change to a very quiet person for now . I still MIA to the others .
Today , going to CG . Yeah :D

Photos that are edited are here . I love it though xD
Church days are cool and is always going to be cool and experience-ful.

I love this pic ! :D Credit to me ! :D

My High Temptation is so strong . keep it going !

If you can dream , you can do it .

I'll believe ! 

Hello readers ,
Reading my blog ? Thank you for someone that have read my blog. For all tooo :)

Today school still kinda roxs because there is AMANDA & XIMIN :D .
This 2 crazy womans rox my life man ! :D

Today , was not going as well as I thought. Is still suxs , I'm being scolded many times today. Was blur + high today .
I wanted to edit photos but with my mood like this , I cant edit anything out anywhere.

Chem , Managed to past up and let Mdm Ow check my file but she didnt know is Darling's file xD
Yeah ! Passed ! :D
Early recess but eual to no recess for me . I seriously need to start all my planning already. I started on how to become a cruel woman until I am 18 , but I still feel so much hurt coming into me.
I miss him still when I even see him right infront of me. Nevermind.
An illusion of love is going to be over quite soon right , I just need someone that know how to wait for me , but for now . I totally have no mood to start all this.

During Choir's rehearsal , my face is still as black as the clouds . Always =.=
But when it is ending , my mood didnt change as much as I thought it will be .
Went to find Kor (WaiHong) to have a chat with him , long time never chat & see him already :) ,he say I slimmed down. Yeah . but I never grow taller , time for me to do some changes. YEAH !!!!

After school went to eat lunch with Amanda & my XIMIN :D
Photos are avaliable in my facebook , but editted will be here :)

Cookie Monster want to come snatch my blogskin .
No lahh ~~~~~ , That sweetie pie of mine , will be wanting to have a skin like mine , but I want to try help her make another kind of skin , I hope she will love it and kept using it :)

I'm will be back being the hardest girl you ever catch !

Hello readers , was not having the mood actually to blog and this time , I supposed to be in school. But , dont know why . I dont feel like going anymore .

Yesterday is the past , do you think I should still write about it ?
I dont know . I only know that changed , is what I think about boys .

Class was fun yesterday but pity thing is without Mr Lee . But Firman make the atmosphere seems hyper up. I dont know how he do thta but he just did it . >.< Cool uhh. Photos with Ximin & Apple and it become almost the whole class . It was fun just 2 periods of SSRP can make us so bonded and cute ! :D Rehearsal right after school , Yeah ! I didnt go to Choir ! I dont want to see that bitch's face . See how you sabo me when you can obviously hear my sound from inside. HAHAHAH :D Went for the CNY Rehearsal with Crystal . At first , sux . But I kinda get used to it so I become more hyper-ed up and I just need to memorize the lyrics. And I am ready fro it ! Finale tooo. Is kinda last minute song but we did it perfectly in the end :) XIMIN DARLING , Thanks for waiting !
Ximin , waited for me right after her CCA to 6 plus :) , she heard me calling her name when we change the venue to Parade square . I was announcing her name thru the mic ! Yeah ! :D
Cool right :)

Went eat dinner which is Mac with Ximin and I saw COOKIEMONSTER!!!! :D
She was wearing school U , and we appeared to be the most craziest girls there with our school uniform on even . HAHHAHAHA 1 Is cute and she scold me meanie . D: .
I kill you JAMIETANJIAMIN @!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAH !
She is so cute :D

Talk to Preston for few hours until my dad cant take it . I love chatting with him , he make me learn alot of stuffs and I kept laughing at that point of time. Got to go to school now . :)
I cant turn back the time le :D

I dont hate you at all . 

I feel so bad !

" I dont feel bad , I hope you dont feel bad " .

My feeling is so feel like fucker ~ 

Hello readers,
School was great today , love taking photos together.
Didnt have the mood to blog for now .

I feel very bad now
I feel like killing myself now .

Will feel blogging later on .

You lifted me up so high , and let me fall down without any warning.

That time when you say " I LOVE YOU" , I nearly jump but I did the correct way of asking you questions or else I will be a fool. Should I choose to hold on or to let go?

But in the end , I still want to see you.

Hello readers !
2nd Post od Daily Posting.

I haven do finish my food journal yet.
Haiis , nvm . I will take my time xD , class blog was created by Ai Lin , I wanted to do the skins. But, Haiis . i know that she will not allow de. So , I let her do . But i have problems looking at the class blog. Haiis .

Practical today .
I was damn gong and tired and moody that morning. No mood at all.
During practical , I did alot of mistakes. Embarrass myself infront of him. Omg. He is still there doing his own things of coz.
Dont dare to eat my tao suan also , in the end . Benjamin say want to help me do eat , but also I ended up throwing away. Disgusting ~!!!!
I cannot be a good housewife in the future worhh. Gong me didnt have a nice day in school.

English AMA group with Dominic , Zhen Jie, Apple & Shikin.
Planning alot of things. Done with planning , go back and seat and I totally slack out of Chemisty lesson today , but in the end , I wake up and chiong everything and in the end . I teach Ximin :)
Dont wanna to do chinese.

After school , stay in class for awhile to 2pm .
Hoping he will sms me , but in the end, I sms him. =.=
Silly me right :)

Sectional was funny ! I love sectional but not choir combine rehearsal , it sux !
Marcus is good at making alot of funny things . I love the sectionals with them. Happy moments was created ! :D
Marcus bought duck rice into the choir room to eat , making all so hungry . HAHAHAHAH
Funny scenes when we are rehearsing .

Meet QiHui after his fasting and went to KFC with Tianxin.
Cannot meet XiaoHui means I cannot get my pay again . Irritating but in the end, is my fault also.
Tomorrow , I dont know how to go when I have choir and the CNY rehearsal . I haven finish the lyrics of Firework siiia . !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still chatting with him .
Dont know whether to keep holding on or let go .
I think I will try holding on , because if is mine , he will like me right .
Please :D

Thanks Jamie , COOKIEMONSTER!!!!!!
You really help me alot and you have to go across this .
I will not believe everything he say anymore but that feeling might only stays for a feel weeks. I know God will help me find one at a suitable time and the same goes to you . Thanks for reading my blog . I love it :D
She help me write a post making me love her moree :D

It say like this " :
EVERYTHING might not be true .
Don't take things that he said to you for granted .
It might be fake , you will never know .
Once someone lie , you lose trust in that someone .

Stay happy , just like you display picture (:
smile WIDE . must be wide to see all your teeth glowing !
shiny shiny one .

treasure everything that you have now once it's gone .
the past will never be back ever again .

Always remember , friend are the BEST .
They will go through everything with you (:
Nobody will , i'll do it (: cause i know , friends are important .
Without friends , life will be meaningless .

ELMO , remember to stay as cheerful as always .
we will fight for things that are ours .
and let love go , if it's yours , it will come back to you ♥

always remember , cookie will be there for you .
just text me (: i'll reply as soon as possible .

Smiles ,
JAMIE COOKIEMONSTARR ! ♥



Got to go to school now . :)
I took alot of photos . Go to my facebook & comment it because it will take a very long timw :)

You made my heart skip !

"Ever you said that you dreamt of me and you holding hands and kissing each other at a romantic place and you asked me whether I want to help you make it come true. That is the time, I think I fallen in love."

When will this happen to me ? Wishing.

Hello guys !
I'm back . Stay up the whole night just to solve the new blog up.
I wanted to change the url again but when I think back , I think it will cause alot of troubles telling you all to relink me right . HAHAH :D
So , this url stays. Of coz , I hope I will be the HYPER BEE always.

Computer is still under fixing mode. I MISS HIM ! . Dear Computer , hope you are getting better day by day .
I heard that I need to make new memories with you again. As you lost your memories and it means it will be impossible to find it back. So , I will take this chance to download many stuffs on you and I will update my phone albums in you too . Once you come back , I will really need your help !

Didnt do the Geo IT work again. I lazy to do & also cannot do .
This computer , is lagging like crazy , and all the fonts seems to be the same .
I dont like it at all but since this is the computer I have right now. I will use it . Better than nothing right .

Starting to post about my daily life . I try kay :)
Didnt sleep much today. Hoping my day will be cute , the next day .
Was having fun in school .
Selected to be the one singing for the CNY Celebrations . CMI~~~~~~ , Singing with Crystal.
Firework & Gong Xi Gong Xi .
Practice in school , Crystal seems to be serious in this , and I seems like nothing is happening but infact , I am shouting for help as I'm really scared . Need to make the whole school high. ARGH!!!
Saying about high , I was busy with my handphone today . Seriously, I enjoy chatting with him , he made me high by saying the word "Cute" .
How do you want to be normal ?!?! , he did say me cute .
Love messaging him.
I will not write about him here , not as much as I think.
Because this is a curse . xD


Maths , I miss Mr Lee , DADDY LEE! :D

Hope tomorrow can see him as Wednesday , I will not get to see him . and I hope there will be someone to teach me Maths .

Shooting Star , I hope my wish will come true . Pretty Please xD

I am in love with Amanda & Ximin now . :D

Think positive !

I need to be interested into my everything in order to make it interesting :)

So , Stay happy does not means you are doing a wrong thing.

All I need to do , is to be ME . 

Hello Guys , thanks for those who kept stalking me by reading my blog .
Thank you so much . Recently , my blog is boring because not much people or nearly no people read my blog . Haiis . Sad D:
But , I know got one person , who kept reading it :) I know who is he , and that will be enough. I am bored today , and you might be wondering why am I still awake at this late time? Hahah , I slept thru the whole afternoon. Wow . *_*
Nothing to amazed on. I only know I need to plan all my work & time well , starting from today.

School later on , I need to go read my books so I can return to the library and borrow more. Addicted to reading love novels again. LOL , I dont know why , but is fun just to continuing reading . Studyin , is what I gonna do for all my 3 years in amkss .
Struggling on Geo now . MRS ISMAL CANT TEACH , so I cannot take it . I have to take some notes . Need to go to my bed now and read some books . If I sleep , I will never make it to school . :)

Went to eat lunch with Sebas.
I want him back as a friend. I want to talk fun things with him. Recently kept quarrling with him. I need to stop this . Have to stop. Because he is hurting .
I want to try talking to him more about bleach so need to watch bleach . :)
Love his topics sometimes .
HAHAHHA .

Daddy scolding , hope to find my usb so I can take some photos and post in my blog .
Few photos on top , I really need to get a tumblr blog now . SO , is easier to express my thoughts :)
Usb is gone ! :'(
See ya later on :)

Useless Fact

WHY AM I THAT USELESS ?
Today , was a freaking miserable day for me.
Was okay in school but right after school, I really hate it. No Social Studies today. Mr Goh , I dont know whether he is in school or not. Miserable. I cannot learn anything for SS .
Forgotten to do Mrs Ismal's homework. It is endless. School totally screw my life . I miss my childhood. Is so sweet and people kept dotting on me. I miss it. But I cannot get it back anymore.

After school , is around 4pm+ , told QiHui to come to my school to fetch me. HE DID ! .
He peii me go home first and he go home change and we meet at Nebo at 6 , planning to bring Jun Meng but Parents dont allow him. So , went alone . Supposed to meet them at Nebo but in the end meet them in arcade , NX . Went play one song and start to do my homeworks.
But didnt know that Daddy followed me , and he saw me only sitting there and he scolded me.
What the hell , I want to explain but he didnt give me the chance .

I am useless . !!!!!!!

The Tourist

The Tourist :D

Yesterday , went to study with QiHui & Qixian .
Studied at Nebo, not for long.
I need to stop myself already from going out already but the secret I have made me want to go out.
No choice , so I did went out . It was ending fun & romantic =P , not as what you all think lahh :D . That will not happen :)

After studying , went to buy tickets . Wanting to watch "The Tourist" .
We bought the ticket and the movie is fantastic ! :D
I (HEARTS) THE TOURIST ! , we watch the movie at 7.50pm , which is so early when we bought the ticket which us at 5.50 plus :) . 2 hours from that time , we went to play PUMP .
Than , QiHui told me sth , made me want to learn pump at a very fast pace.
I want to be as pro as him & Sebas. I want to . Because there is a reason :)

Gtg to school. Dont know my brother got make it to meet QiHui's mother or not. I want to kill that blur-est brother of mine ! Argh !!!

WHYY!

Hello guys .
Was updating quite late.
School had been interesting recently. With totally new subjects all separated.
2nd Day of school, I have homeworks. Disaster. .
Geo is the worst. Mrs Ismal. I think I will flung both my humanities. Omg, what is the crap.
Most of my seniors said that she dont know how to teach , she only know how to talk. But indeed, she is. Just provoke her ONCE , just once. You will know that your periods that supposed to study for Geo will be gone :x . After today experience. I totally dont even dare to spend my time outside anymore.
Physics , Mr Lee Tai Sen . He teach was cute . With his walking style. :D HAHHAA .
FT is Mr Eric Lee , but I prefer Mr Tan teaching me Maths . I'm getting used to his method of teaching maths. But , nvm :)
I want to improve my maths in 2 years .

After school, stayed in class for awhile , wondering should I skip choir but I did. xD
under Zoey's teaching of how to find excuse to skip it. HAHAH !

After School , wanted to find QiHui so we can go eat lunch and wondering to go Nebo study or do Mrs Ismal's useless homeworks. But , when I come out and buy Ice Cream , I saw Crystal & JQ Kor , went to eat Chicken rice with them . But I dont think is nice. WHAT PROUD CHICKEN RICE YOU INTRO KOR ! . Dont think is nice.

Went to Nebo to search for QiHui , went to use Kor's lappy and ended up doing my own things . He is angry with me not doing my homework . xD .
Justin came and find JQ , ended up talking about how to cheat arcade's money .
But , I like Justin & Kor 's conversation , it makes me laugh :)
JUSTIN IS SICK & KOR IS VULGAR ! .
But was a fun time with them.

They went home with me , ended up they was downstair waiting for me to change into Home clothings.
But we stay at the back of the supermarket to choose where to go . QiHui 's Pub or PIU .
Ended up , QiHui & Tianxin went to the pub . Rest of us went to PIU .
Have quite an argue in Bus 166.

In arcade until night time , I got lost of the time even. :)
Charge Kor's Lappy in Zone X . Learn new html skills by Justin.
Help Justin to take some videos to put it in our pump blog .
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